i love to pine for things i can't have.
no, no, no, wait. i love to pine for things things i CAN have, if so desired, but things i don't truly crave. instead of honestly "going after" these things, i just feighn interest and passion, beat around the bush until i've completely worn it down, declare exhaustion and walk away with a smile.
that way, i can look back and say i "tried" because i "did", learn from my "failures" without actually feeling the heartbreak.
"you know i always like to play the victim"
this is entertaining, but childish and i'm sick of playing heartless games.
that is all.