Wednesday, March 18, 2009


i wish i could say something profound.
something to explain this mess i've put myself in...
i think it was unavoidable though.
i wish it wasn't.
i still don't know where things are going to go, they're hanging on the edge for me.
thats all i can say because i've already said too much.

if you're reading this i love you.
i have, i do, i always will.
don't forget.

Monday, March 9, 2009

million dollars worth.

i keep getting on here with intent to update but it doesn't happen.
i'm not happy, i'm not sad, nor excited, anxious or angry.
the one thing worse than any hurtful emotion
is not feeling anything at all.
i'm not suicidal, i'm just nothing.
i feel like deleting everything...
i say deleting because the internet is almost the only place i feel i exist.
what the heck, keish hahahah.
you sound insane, but its okay.
who even reads this anyways?
plus i'm sure YOU've felt this way before.
it just happens.
i think what i need is change.
my routine is stale, i can't stand this.
i've been holding back for too long and i don't feel its helping me to stay here.
i miss everything.
i'm going to las vegas for spring break i guess :)
never been, its definitely somewhere i've wanted to go.
i can bring a friiiiiend, come!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

love and other disasters

honestly, that was one of THE most endearing movies i've ever seen.
i only rented it so that i'd have entertainment at work,
but i really think i fell in love.
if you love audrey hepburn at all, i'd definitely invest.
its adorable.
i really need to go shopping.