Saturday, December 18, 2010


i am still so undecided about things.
its not a negative thing though. not at all.
what is so absolutely amazing about being undecided is that i can literally do whatever i want. the fact that i GET the choice to either recieve a degree as a court reporter or pursue my dream of a career in culinary/ owning a restaurant.
heck, i can do both. easy as pie.
i can choose to move to California, i can stay here, or i can move to the snow (as i've been thinking about doing lately)
I have so many options and oportunities in front of me, i will never complain about the fact that i can't decide between two or three choices. i am truly blessed.
granted i could run out of time and "miss my train" when it comes to doing something but thats the way life goes, eh? i have enough faith in Christ to believe that even if i do miss it, its only making way for a greater oportunity.
signing off.

Thursday, December 2, 2010


i want to eat
i want to stay slim

i want to shop
i want to sleep

i want to cook
i want to be healthy

i want to graduate
i want to drop out and follow my heart

i want to work at firebirds
i want a 9-5

i want to move to phoenix
i want to stay where i am

i want my hair to be dark brown
i want my hair back blonde

i want to get married and grow up real fast
i want to take my time and do things right

i want to be patient
i want to make sure that i don't miss anything by trying too hard to keep my feet on the ground.

i want a new journal
i want to finish my old one

i want to buy buy buy everyone christmas presents
i want to pay off some old bills.

i want to keep what i have
i want to see what else is out there.

my needs are too contradictory for me to deal with right now.