wanted

i want to eat
but
i want to stay slim

i want to shop
but
i want to sleep

i want to cook
but
i want to be healthy

i want to graduate
but
i want to drop out and follow my heart

i want to work at firebirds
but
i want a 9-5

i want to move to phoenix
but
i want to stay where i am

i want my hair to be dark brown
but
i want my hair back blonde

i want to get married and grow up real fast
but
i want to take my time and do things right

i want to be patient
but
i want to make sure that i don't miss anything by trying too hard to keep my feet on the ground.

i want a new journal
but
i want to finish my old one

i want to buy buy buy everyone christmas presents
but
i want to pay off some old bills.

i want to keep what i have
but
i want to see what else is out there.


my needs are too contradictory for me to deal with right now.
headache.