lily allen

her songs are so political, geesh.

i reconnected with some music today.
mostly damien rice and her space holiday, ha how freshman year!

i'm passing on the good-ness though. i think thats fair enough reason for a come back.

i want it to be summer

and i want it to be summer now.

uproar

i'm sick.
i could go on and on about it but i'll spare you the deets.
its horrid but i think i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
maybe its just the sunlight,

because i actually have found it impossible to sneeze without running to the window

and looking straight into the sun.
this is great and all, no one likes to lose a sneeze mid-nose tingle.
EXCEPT WHEN THERE'S NO SUNLIGHT.
i'm pretty sure i had the most distraught look on my face when i ran

to the window just as the sun went behind a tree on the golf course by my work...
no more relief tonight.

so, i'm pretty obsessed with smartwater right now.
its only a buck for the HUGE 33 oz bottle at target so i got on that.
i, like... crave it. i had 3 yesterday and two today.
which reminds me:
free pancake day! i indulged, sadly enough.
actually for once i don't regret it.

tell me you could resist that. priceless.
i didn't think so.

these past few days have gone fast.
as of yesterday, Ty can turn in his mission papers!
he's almost all set, just a few things to wrap up and they're off!
i'm soo proud of him.
every time i come across a missionary
or hear his recite his sales pitch (which happens alot! sweetheart :p )
i can't help but think what an
adorable, successful, handsome, strong missionary he's going to be.
he is so good at standing up for what he believes in
and he never gives up when things get hard.
ha.
i can't wait for him to get out there on the field and do his thing.
he'll definitely be recieving maaany letters from me.
also, since we're on the subject he got a new job!
he's going to be doing great and the pay is steady and hours are goood.
now i gotta get on a new one!
it'll be sad to leave Carousel, i still adore that job.
when the time comes to leave, it'll happen.
that opportunity was honestly the greatest blessing to me, i can't explain it.

since i was sick last week i've missed soo much school.
i really wish i had insane motivation to make it up... i don't actually.
i'll get good enough grades and i can't WAIT for college next year,
but as for right now... i don't really want to be there whatsoever.
weird.

the months pass by so quickly, its going to be summer before we know it!
i need a new bathing suit, and a cover up i decided.
and menos diez libra... cien y cinco es muy bueno.


what really grinds my gears today though?
the fact that Tom is a jerk
and he decided to change myspace mobile so i can no longer read bulletins?

well technically i can but only the first 3 words? maybe less.
honestly? why. what is the point of that?
how does he profit?
what am i supposed to do all day in my classes?
this isn't fair. i swear if he doesn't fix it soon... i will be so mad.
atleast i have facebook...
HEAR THAT, TOM?? ATLEAST I HAVE FACEBOOK.

staying in tonight, no escuela tomorrow.
thats what i like to hear.

house, medium, lie to me, nyquil, done.

i'll be your distraction

i really, really wish i had the money to dress nice.
like, J. Crew Gap Banana Republic Ralph Lauren nice, in Calvin Klein undies.
but i don't.
plus, you'd have to completely disreguard that i go to gilbert's ghetto high school
where sweatpants and hoodies with the occasional jeans are a pretty set dress code.
i hate being in high school, hate it.
especially in mine.

emily and i went to the outlets yesterday!
it was really fun, we couldnt buy anything though...
anything except I HEART BARACK SHIRTS!
he is so good looking hahahaha.

i'm getting sick.
thanks everyone.

i was going to blog about Chris and Rihanna because i think thats what these are for, you know. but i'm afraid that if i said how i really feel, people would get mad at me.
actually oh well, i'm over it.

basically, i think R is psycho to begin with BUT even though i think she deserved a good swift punch in the face, it probably shouldn't have come from C. the case that they are presenting is full of lies and exagerations. even the picture doesn't look as bad as they say it does. if you look
past the fact that her lip is swollen, she probably doesn't even have black eyes. it looks like she's been crying and they're puffy but honestly... i don't know. i can't even exlpain it without everyone thinking i condone domestic violence.
i don't whatsoever, thats not my point.
my point is that i'm sorry rihanna got hit but she isn't cooperating at all. doesn't the law state innocent until proven guilty? then why did all the radio stations stop playing chris's music without knowing whether or not it was even legit?
i just think if R really wants to make a stand then she needs to get her story straight.
what, what.


oh! and i'll post senior pictures laaater, i'm actually dying right now.
they turned out freaking amazing and i had a really good afternoon with Kelsea and Tyler!
i can't wait to get the rest.

boom, boom, boom, boom.

today was a really good holiday!
we woke up early, but its a good thing we did because we were busy allll day.

last night i went to a lock-in at emily's church.

i knew it was going to be interesting but it was seriously, alot of fun!

not like, OH MY GOSH I CANT CONTAIN MY ENTHUSIASM fun, (no offence hahaha)
but definitely meet new people and sleep on a concrete floor in skinny jeans fun!

i'm really glad i was invited!

i got my eyebrows done and bought hair dye so i look semi-decent for my sr pictures!

we went to mills mall.

i haven't been there foreveeer!
i definitely wasn't disappointed though!
we tried on beautiful bodacious prom dresses for hours.

i had to work at 3 so we went on a drive, which i lurv.

Kara and Rylee came in and we had a good talk with goooood pizza.

muy bueno.
Went to the gym, moderate work out but i had fun!

my outfit was borderline though, haha i don't know what to think of it!

i got to see my Tyler today!

its been like 48 hrs, i was dying folks ;p
had some good conversation with him, he's such a good boy.
not even just a good boyfriend (he's an AMAZING ONE)
but really just an awesome kid. he's definitely one of my top 3 heros in life.

valentines day etc

valentines day was the best!
i didn't even think it could compare to last years,
last valentines was one of THE most special days of my life :)
but ooooh, this year was incredibile.
the night before i had made a fruit pizza and it turned out soo good.
here's a picture of that

(i was so proud!)
i had to work at 8 so i brought it over veeery early in the morning and he came and got it. I also had a monkey with "love u 4 eva" enscribed on it, hahahah. and a caaard! it was all so cute.
later, we started out the night around 5 because i had to work and Ty had some stuff to do around his house. i met him at my house when i got off and he showed up with the most beautiful roses in a vase and a card he made! it was soo cute.

then, to add to it, there was a picture inside of the most beaaaautiful ring ever!
my promise ring :)
it hasn't arrived yet and i'm really bad at desciding what ring size i should use so its not on but i have a picture!

so. gorgeous.
and so cute, i'm really happy to have it.

yesterday was also my mom's birthday (i love you, momma v!) so we headed out with the fam to PF Changs. It was a really good time with everyone there :) we ate like everything!
we stopped home to open presents and such with my mom, which was nice.


Tyler and i promised to take her out to lunch and a movie as our present haha what could be better?!
we actually did really similar things for each other last valentines day!
these pictures are a year apart. i love them!



many more to come :)
after all that was finished, we headed out on a drive. we wanted to walk along mill and tempe town lake, but we never made it there? haha i don't know how. we busted out the tunes; good charlotte, new found glory, the format, taylor swift, etc. and tried to park somewhere we weren't allowed to, pissed alot of people off who were driving and almost died a few times! haha but nothing too serious. i had so much fun! when we were too turned around to do much about it, i told Tyler about how i really wanted to go find President Barack Obama because i love him.
he's really, really ridiculously good looking. he's somewhere in a hotel in phoenix as we speak and i'm just itching to see him haha.
we then headed downtown to where the nba all star game jam thingy is and scoured through the crowds of people trying to find My President, but we kind of failed miserably :) but theeeen we took a wrong turn somewhere and ended up in this allyway where there was a bunch of huuuge buses and vans speeding past and they looked like tourbusses for celebrities but they said "SHERIF" all over them haha like the police force sherif? so we descided that was as close to Barack as we were going to get that night and gave up down town.
we drove back, down to QT of course and a few other stops along the way. by this point i was far too tired to much of anything. as a matter of a fact i could hardly keep my head from falling to my feet so it was time to go home :) tonight was incredible!

vegan virgin valentine.

i'm so excited for my senior pictures.
i know its already been blogged about,
but you're just going to hear it oooone more time.
i can't wait to have kelsea take pictures of me!
the whole thing will just be a blast, i know it :)
i get a new dressss too. I'm using it for the states competition and the pictures.
te gusta?

i do!
i'm actually not physically getting this dress but its my "ideal" dress.

I went to Gateway Community College last night for a tour.
Yes, its in the ghetto but I'm so excited to go there.
I'm excited for the classes and the knowledge and just the accomplishment.

I can't wait to get away from Gilbert high.
I don't know how to say this without sounding like a brat buuuut..
people hate me. alot.
I really, really can't figure it out! honest.
it doesn't bug me anymore because i have never strived to win any of their affection
but i can literally hear them talking behind my back at school constantly.
everything I say is taken into account and turned around to make me sound stupid.
I just don't see them having a legit reason?
these are people i've never talked to or hung out with before and they have such serious opinions about me and obviously feel that hatred towards me is pretty dang necessary.
I wish i knew why.
I would never guarentee a change, I love myself the way I am...
It'd just be interesting to know the reason for the dirty looks and comments I've gotten on a daily basis for the last 3 years.
whatevvvver.
anyways, if you know the big conspiracy, just tell me.
i don't care, write it in my truth box, scream it in my facee? just let me know.
thanks :)

there's some weird things and memories that have been haunting me lately.
i feel its very one-sided though, which is fine but embarrassing to admit.
i wish they would go away.
thats all i can say.

i am so proud of myself for my success at the gymmm.

tomorrow is friday the 13th... my last name is going to have a field day i bet.
i'm gonna leave school early i bet. i have so much to do.
i am extremely excited for v-day though!
i obviously can't say much because Tyler reads this but its going to be really really fun.
I am, sybolicly (HA!), reading VEGAN VIRGIN VALENTINE, so i must go.
its wonderful.


(this is where i was planning on posting some lyrics.
on second thought, they were rather morbid and i have no replacement.)

heartless

stay away from me, song!
i'm doing better than my last post suggests i might be.
it was just a bad day/night.
not to mention the fact that i was very sick and delusional ha.

my workouts are getting easier, i'm thankful for that.
i'd love to be in shape, i never have been.

my mom got me "Keith" to watch, haha i guess it has jesse mccartney in it?
can't complain.
http://www.imdb.com/video/screenplay/vi2646999833/

anyways, i'm really really excited to get my senior pictures done.
kelsea's pictures (simply you photography) are incredible.
i love the way she does them, and i couldn't be happier!
i think tyler is joining me for the shoot!
i'll be more than happy to post everything here when i can!

chopped

i feel so helpless in every aspect.

everything hit me today, and i hate it.

i hate the reprocussions of wanting this so badly.

i hate the sickness and the person i become.
i can't do this anymore.

its going to ruin everything.

workin' on my fitness!

woohoo! i finally got my gym membership.
emily and i are so fierce, for real.

i think i have a new obsession, and this one is socially acceptable!
well, socially understandable to a certain extent haha.

i feel wonderful.
am i lame? yes. everyone that works out acts like this at first.
i wish i could "File: Save" this ish so that i could upload it every day for the next 15 months...!
if you have a membership at FW, let me know.
and we'll "get it on."
(I was talking about the gym, i am so not a raper!)

plus, Ty is getting a 3 mo. membership before his mish so we can work out thide by thide
love, love, love.

aaaalso, i figured out more college things!
i'm very excited, i can't wait to get on my feet and make my own real $$$.
plus emily's mom is my VFP today and might possibly get me a summer job?
if not, i understand but seriously it might save my life hahahaha
okay, not save my life but maybe atleast take some stress off.

and if this wasn't great enough,
Ty helped me (after a V awkward EX-ual encounter, mind you haa!)
pick out 3 pairs of athletic shorts, 2 tanks, and perfect running shoes
for $30.12
ah-mazing.
bueno day overall.

shut up and drive

today was the first day this semester,
maybe even this school year
that i totally just ditched out on school
and ooooh, it felt good.

i swear, if i had a car that was guarrenteed to last
you could never get me out of it.

i adore driving, i don't care where, it just calms me immensely.
it shouldn't though.

its a horrible, lazy, expensive habit.

it gets me thinking too- sometimes good, sometimes bad.
i made a list of people i need to meet in my life.
obama is on it, for sure.

because i WILL meet him.
just call me monica (not really though).

the other night emily and i saw the uninvited.

it was even better than expected.

i seriously cried i was so scared haa.

the girls in it weren't traditional looking, but i liked them alot.

definitely a must see.



oh my gosh! i just remembered, she's violet!
from the series of unfortunate events!
and her sister is from aquamarine and john tucker must die.
funny!

i also started watching Lie To Me

it reminds me of CSI but its good.
i'm addicted to TV and movies, now.

i don't mind though.

i'm getting my gym membership to Fitness Works tomorrow...

where i will work on my fitness.
basically thats it, i can't really go into it haha.

i heard this song today, and i've missed it.
maybe one day everything will be okay- the raintree

“that thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.”

pin oh chi oh

PICTURE TIME
superstition mountain
-this time i know its right
because i took it.

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!
all there in fine print, baby :)
one year and going even stronger.

look at what a cutie he is!

this is a different time, but i love it.

I LOOK LIKE A WHALE!
not necessarily even fat, just a whale
i don't know why.

this is the most handsome boy i know.
hands down.

slacker

i have the worlds sweetest boyfriend, hands down.
our one year was amazing and it was all thanks to him
and everything he's done for me.
ohh, i am one lucky girl!
i know i already wrote on this,
but i can't believe that after a year we're still so close
without an effort, the connection is always just there.
its weird for me, because i mean...
when have i ever had a normal relationship?
haha, i mean one that lasts more that 1 week.

i'm so thankful for that, and i'm so glad that its been with my best friend.
i love you tyler!


superbowl sunday today, should i be excited?
i am, but just as much as i would be for liiike...
payday or something haha.
but i'll probably be more into it when the time comes!
pictures later, i'm lazy.