shoulda woulda coulda

I WILL GIVE ANYTHING TO MAKE A BABY LIKE THIS

so important

colder weather

i'm so excited for the skinny jeans, huge scarfs, fitted jackets, ballerina buns, boots and victoria's secret sweat and yoga pants

i can't get over winter fashion, its my favorite season to dress up for.

i need at least one night like this when it gets a tad cooler:

i want california, a fall breeze on the beach and hot chocolate and natural make up and hugs to keep warm. i want babies in halloween costumes and baked goods and family parties and to go to utah. i want beautiful wedding receptions, holiday parties, mini roadtrips to the snow and the heater on in my car.

not to mention the holidays are coming fast. i'm not sure i'm ready for that, but ready or not.

horiscopes are creepy

Leo Sep 26 2011
You aren't one to give up easily, Leo. When the going gets tough, a Leo almost always gets going. Your perseverance and determination are legendary. You aren't easily knocked down. That's one of your many attributes. But, at times, it is also one of your downfalls. Sometimes you don't know when to quit. You don't know when your investment is being wasted. Right now you are pushing and working and choosing not to give up on a certain goal, but you have done all you can. It may be time to walk away from something that isn't giving anything back.

this is my only requirement for a future home.
a beauty-and-the-beast style library!

relax

relief

today in relief society we had an amazing lesson on preparing for an eternal marriage, and the triangle of a husband, his wife and the Lord.

we were reminded that as we draw closer to our Heavenly Father, we will become closer with our spouse. i really enjoyed the lesson, especially when she went into detail about not stopping our lives while we wait for the perfect man to come along and make us happy, but to be happy ourselves and strive to live the way we should so that we may attract someone who has a testimony as strong as our own. there were so many great talks and lessons today, its so exciting to see exactly how much i receive out of each and every meeting.

"Please never forget that you must be patient and compassionate with yourselves, that some sacrifices are better than others, that you need not wait for a golden ticket to be happy. Please never forget that the “why” of the gospel of Jesus Christ will inspire and uplift you. And never forget that your Heavenly Father knows, loves, and cherishes you."

-President Uctdorf

i'm so excited for this weekend as well! i've never been more in need of the words spoken in general conference. i'm so grateful to have work off and my family close by so that i may truly take it in. i am in great need of answers to the questions i've been asking.

first time for everything!

ASU vs. USC

so tonight i went to my first football game... im 20 years old and this was my first football game! haha i was excited going into it but i knew i probably wouldn't understand what was going on and i wasn't sure how i felt about the whole blind spirit thing. i didn't want to over-do it, this being my first time and all, but i didn't want to stand out as the new girl. i know, only i would worry about this right? so i chose my outfit and attitude accordingly, met up with some real cool kids and headed down to the stadium. honestly, i've watched football games many, many times on the television and i know its not cool to admit this but i had so little interest in the happenings on the screen. the first quarter of the game, it was pretty obvious that i was staring blankly into the field and cheering when everyone around me did, so they explained the plays to me over and over again. it took another quarter or so but by the third..... i knew what was going on a little bit! it was the weirdest thing! pretty exciting to me. i cheered, high fived and saw steve nash, it was awesome. i even knew when to say "one two three first down!" THEN we pulled ahead, and we were winning, which was awesome, i guess we haven't won them in 11 years? correct me if i'm wrong. or don't, its okay. and then WE WON! which was awesome, and i don't know why. i mean, i could still definitely use that football for girlfriends lecture, i have a lot to learn but.. this is a big deal for me!

oh plus there was this magic dust storm that was just surreal! i couldn't get a good picture but it was crazy. it enveloped the entire stadium with swirling dirt and trash... okay doesn't sound quite as great as it was.. just imagine this, i guess

sparks fly

halloween

im soooo beyond excited to dress up!

tired

had & sappy

Unkle Bob - Swan

!!!

"keep in mind that God is your greatest companion
 because no matter how imperfect you are and no matter what happens in your life,
God will still be there to give you the greatest love you’ve always wanted."

i am so overwhelmed! i never thought that i could feel such comfort so soon after making a decision like this. in hindsight, i might have been pessimistic/over-dramatic but i was prepared for weeks, even months of emptiness and unanswered questions. instead, here i am so grateful for the absolute downpour of blessings i've been receiving these passed few days. i'm literally speechless, mouth-open in shock over the opportunities that have presented themselves to me. i've been working so hard to stay afloat, and as i said i can't thank my friends enough for the support you have shown me. i see my hard work paying off and my willingness to listen to the promptings of the Lord is bringing me to a much better place than i was in. 

true happiness


once again, thank you thank you thank you for the calls, texts and kind words my friends. you all mean the world to me! i could not do this without you and i refuse to lose sight of that fact <3

i'm obsessed

with the ring i bought myself:

actually, like i said before, i'm obsessed with rings in general haha bring on the material possessions,
 i looove fall/winter style!

i just wanted to take a quick second and thank everyone who's taken time out of their day to check up on me recently. your kind words of advice and understanding has made my journey so much easier. it sounds silly, but i honestly could not get through this without the support of my close friends, family, members of the church and co-workers. i've been working so hard to improve my life and all i've heard from those that mean the most to me, is positive reinforcement. through all the hard decisions i've made, and everything i have had to watch fall apart in front of me, i'm in need of nothing but an open heart and an open mind. i've had to humble myself and pray only for the ability to see the opportunities presented to me, and take them even though i'm not 100% comfortable with moving forward yet. i know its what i need to do. i'm so thankful for the knowledge of the eternal perspective and the comfort in knowing that if me doing everything i'm supposed to has lead me here, then this is where i'm meant to be. i'm absolutely shocked as to how quickly i was able to see the blessings come forth. my heart is filled with gratitude for the patience, guidance and forgiveness of others. i'm so grateful for your ability to be so in-tune to the promptings of the spirit and touch the lives around you.

THANK YOU! you are wonderful xo

yeah, yeah

promise

eternal perspective

He lives in you.

so to answer your questions YES, the lion king in 3D was the most powerful, incredible experience of my life! this is coming from a girl who can't staaaand three dimensional films... i am literally setting aside a hundo as we speak just to see it a few more times before it leaves the theater. if you know me at all, you know that the lion king has been my favorite since who knows when. i've had multiple lion king birthdays, stuffed animals, mugs and apparel.my parents tracked down every lion king happy meal toy so i could have a complete set. i've worn through my VHS, and even considered a simba tattoo at one time. yep. this is the real deal, folks.
ps simba is such a babe

LOVE LOVE LOVE

and thank you, jessica, for taking me to see it when i was so afraid i'd miss out! you're the bestfriendever

guilty

i love rings.
i'll take them all.

i just ask

that these next two, three, six months go by quickly.

or something.

oh hey

replace tea with "water" or "diet soda" and you've got it!

amen!

.

i am between a rock and a hard place.

help.

if not now, then when?

hard day.

the king

you can find me in the theaters every day for those two weeks

rain or shine

someday

the salt lake temple is so incredible

inspired

this winter is going to be full of beautiful clothes, new friends, new experiences and good choices.

"Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith.” -Thomas S. Monson

pictures aren't uploading very well :/