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so, i'm not going to spend more than 10 seconds apologizing for not blogging in sooo long.

i'm sorry!

ANYHOW, things have been super busy working two jobs and living my summer liiife, taking multiple vacations to california and beyond! spent some quality time with my awesome family, my amazing boyfriend and my good good friends. i'm so blessed 100% of the time, its incredible.

as always, i've set some goals and trying to make some positive changes in my life! its been a long time coming for some of these goals, but i don't mind. i'm still trucking along! i've really set my mind to these things and made a plan of action for each so hopefully we'll see some positive results coming around the end of this yeaaaaaar!

i'm so happy, right now.

blessed and blissful

xo

hello, busy bee

now a proud employee of (drumroll please)

ta-da!

i'm ecstatic! i have so much respect and love for TCS and its employees already, i cannot wait to start! i'm so blessed to invest my time in things that i have a true passion for. i can't imagine working somewhere that i wasn't completely head over heels in love with everything that they provide for their guests. never again. the atmosphere, the food/beverages, the service, the guests, i could gush about both Firebirds and The Coffee Shop for ever.

if you've never been to either, GO.

even if you don't like coffee, it would be foolish to not stop by for their award winning cupcakes!

more to come, i'm sure!

whew, so many upcoming changes!

new job/ two jobs. school is ending! i'm getting a new roommate and hopefully many, many more life-changing events will be up and coming in the near future... as long as i have my family, my boyfriend and my true best friends by my side, constant change is my best friend.

BRING IT ON, SUMMER 2011

just do it

three simple words.
i honestly can't think of another way to put a motivational quote, this says everything it needs to for any occasion. thank you nike.

MY NEW OBSESSION!

SPAGHETTI SQUASH
oh. my. goodness.
its incredible. its versatile. its delectable.
honestly, i haven't felt this way about a vegetable since i learned french fries were made out of potatoes, i can't believe how good this is!





true to its name, its generally used as a pasta substitute in spaghetti but i've come to learn that red sauce, while healthier than a cream sauce, is just not my favorite. plus there's a lot of hidden sodium in most spaghetti and pizza sauces so watch out for that. when i first bought my SpSq, i brought it home from the store, set it on the table, looked at it and was like "yup, proobably never going to eat that. too much work."
and i stayed true to my word for atleast a month.
then, i got desperate on groceries. i was using plain yogurt for milk in cereal and i just didn't have the timeenergymoney to go to Fry's so i googled "how to cook spaghetti squash?" and viola! many many options. baking it seemed best. i had a bunch of other things to do, plus my oven was already heated for my roommate so i cut it in half (NOT easy without proper cutlery, but thats not changing anytime soon.)and plopped it in the oven, face up right on the rack.
i left it in there for a good 40 minutes, went and poked at it, decided to get it out and thats where i fell in love. the pulp literally shreds away with a fork in strands that are just like spaghetti! still a little apprehensive i grabbed the closest condiments, garlic salt and spray butter and BAM love. in my mouth. it was delicious. i couldn't get enough! i ate almost the whole squash, but saved about a cup for later.

all my healthy efforts went to crap as soon as i met klay @ iHop for their cinnabon pancakes

(INCREDIBLE!)
but oh well. you win some you lose some.... except i don't see how i lost because my day was filled with absolute deliciousness.

ahhh <3 today i reheated that spaghetti squash thinking "there's no way that this held well" but did iiiit ever ha.
i sauteed it with some fresh mushrooms and had another incredible meal.

go buy spaghetti squash.

humphh

roll upp

caf-FIEND

thats it, i'm going to do it.
i'm going to give up caffeine. i can't believe i said it! but i need to. and in turn, i will give up artificial sweeteners, as well as carbonation. i hate being dependent on what is, no doubt, a drug. i drink way too much caffeine and i need it to function.
this has got to stop!
good news is, i was researching it and withdrawals last about 2-9 days, so within two weeks i can hope to be a normal, functioning, well oiled machine WITHOUT caffeine.
i'm excitedd! support me on this.
i'll post daily updates on twitter or my blog just to keep myself sane.

me myself and i

finally a minute to focus on myself!
spring break turned out to be more than what i needed, i feel so relaxed after a few very stressful weeks. got to hang out with some new friendys and get my mind off the less-than-positives. i love themmm.
i now have time to pick up where i left off, figuring out everything i need to be doing to better myself. i have a lot of self improvements to be making! but its almost summer and i'm so excited. summer is a good time.
i will be Acing all my classes this semester, going out with a bAng haha paying off my credit card, i should be done within the month! easy peasyy. after my card is paid off, i'll be able to grab a gym membership (LA|FITNESS), but until then, you can find me at my apartment gym, gettin' my beach bod on. working hardd @ Firebirds, possibly moving up to a server. definitely before summer time! going to single's ward with the previously mentioned new friends for some weekly enlightenment.

boring post, but just had to document the recent changes!
i'm happy.

my spring/summer

will be spent in t-shirt like tunics and dresses.










bam.

keishark

just trying to live up to my namesake.

as you and i learned in elementary school, most sharks cannot stop swimming without losing the ability to breathe. i don't know the actual facts or breeds or really much in depth about what this applies to, other than that is how i feel. i feel like i'm constantly in motion right now. not running away from my sadness so much as preventing myself from suffocating by its hand.

this past week has been, without a doubt, the hardest week of my entire life.

there has been so much loss so close to my heart, its unbearable. i don't remember shedding so many tears in such a short amount of time. tears for myself, tears for others, tears of happiness and tears just because i don't know what else to do. I don't take sadness lightly, and though i have a sensitive heart, i am usually able to look on the bright side of every situation (not that thats not what i'm doing right now, it is. its the only way i know how to cope) these things are just very life-altering situations that will not pass easily.

really, i'm so thankful for times like these that show me just how strong the gospel is and how strong the gospel has made me. i'm blessed with an unwaivering sense that everything will be okay in the end, and though thats cliche, i don't think there is a more comforting thought to be running through my head right now. i'm thankful to know about life after death. i'm thankful to see the big picture and to know that even in the worst of times, i have a million reasons to not succumb to my sadness. I'm thankful for my family, both at home and at work. i'm blessed to be surrounded by such strong people. i never thought 40-60 strangers could get along so well just by being placed in the same restaurant. true, we have our spats and debates but we love each other. we do. they are my best friends.

of course, i can't even BEGIN to express my gratitude for Klay at this time in my life.
he is my rock: unwaivering in times of trial - steady when i need someone to lean on. He doesn't have to say much, i know i do enough talking for the both of us ;) and he has helped me in ways i can't put into words. Literally from the moment i met him, i've looked up to him as an incredible individual, but we all have our downfalls right? we're human? mmm no not Klay hahaha ;) okay, this one time he rinsed off angel hair pasta and you're not supposed to do that, but all in all he's both strong and intelligent through and through. he is both a voice of reason and a place of refuge for me when i need to get away from it all. The times we've spent together this last week will be forever engraved in my mind, they mean so much to me. You are my heart, babe. My very very best friend. i can't wait until "this too shall pass" and we can move on 100x stronger than ever.

"i run to you" -lady antebellum

rip bobby, the world lost a great man yesterday.